Nephews

     Days, weeks, and months go by and everyday I miss my nephews more and more. Of course I have other family a rarely see and miss more than the world but my nephews I miss more than anyone. As days go by I feel as though I am missing them grow up. Last time I saw my nephews my oldest was barley talking and now he is speaking and even saying my name. The last time I saw my youngest he was just a baby, he wasn't even crawling yet and was barley eating baby food and now he is walking and just eating everything. I hate knowing that I don't get to see them atleast once a week, I mean don't even get to see them once a year! I swear I miss my babes so much! I can't wait till the next time I can see them... LOVE YOU DAVID AND LEVI <3

My view..

     Growing up I was surronded around religion. I was baptisted, I use too go to church pratically every Sunday. I even did a bible summer camp at my church with my cousins. I use too read bible stories, I have even read some of the bible. What bothers me is because I put my views on religon out to everyone too see because I don't wether or not people like what I believe in or not. But what does bother me is house people say I am ignorant when it comes to religon, that I don't know what I am talking about. I hate when I post my views and people tell me to go to church. Because what some people need to realize is just because my views on religon are different than yours doesn't mean I am ignorant on religon.
     Thats actually one reason I dislike religon because people think "if you dont believe what I believe, then your wrong" which is stupid. Cause not all people look at religon the same. Some people look at religon and believe in it, some people look at it and don't believe in it. It just depends on the person and the way they were raised around religon.
     I am someone who believe 100% in religon growing up. I was always happy to go to church and read the stories. I thought they were the most amazing things in the world. I thought they were the truth. But then people(not saying names) changed my view. After years of people bashing religon, after seeing people twist religon in to what they want. It made me come to my own conclusion on what religon really is.. I beleive religon is just something people create, yes to give people hope and positive out look on things, yes religon is amazing for some people and can help them. But then people have also created religon to use agaisnt one and another, it is away for these people to gain power in the world. I think the stories are made up, to give people something to talk about. I find the bible a joke because if the bible was "gods word" they wouldn't have revised it and made the new testament, if "gods word" is finally you would HAVE to go by the original words not the revised ones.  I am  not saying I don't believe in a "god" but I am not saying I don't. I beleive there is something or someone, out there that is bigger than the human race. But also don't beleive it is just one person or being I beleive there is no way one person has enough power to make this. I also don't beleive Jesus was the son of god.
     But you know, this is what I believe not everyone else. Everyone has there own out look, there own view point on religion or what they believe in. This is just my view point. I am the kind of person who knows what I believe in and I love too hear what others believe in. But I don't like when people are pushy with there religon. So ya.. this was just my rant.

May 21, 2012

BEFORE YOU READ: I need to vent. My thoughts have become over whelming. I need to do something. I need to reach too people. I hope you guys can just read and STFU no comments. Unless you are trying too help me. 

 Lately, I have felt as though I am drifting away from the people I was once close too. I feel like my world has become smaller. I try to smile all the time but tears fall instead. The go lucky girl I once knew is fading. I am quieter and hiding my feelings. I am trying to go on but life has become hard. I want to be alone but that is nearly impossible. Every where I turn someone is there. My thoughts have become filled with questions and no answers. Concentrating has become hard I can't read and do math with out messing up anymore. My school work I think has began too suffer. My mind is just in lost. I am on a roller coaster I just want to get off. I want too leave it. It isn't fun anymore. I have a headache and I am sick of it. What must I do to feel like myself again? Will I remain like this forever? Am I going through a stage? No, no I can't be, but would cause me too think like this? Where has my real smile gone. Where have I gone. I need something or someone too fix this. To help me... I don't I can do this on my own. I don't think I can be happy by myself. I need to be able to confine in someone. I need someone I can open my WHOLE heart too not just pieces and bits of it. I need to be able to have someone understand me and not be questioned for my thoughts and feelings. I need to feel loved. I do know don't get me wrong. I have a whole family who loves me believe me I know I have their love and support. But I have always felt as though my thoughts and feelings have never been understood by someone. I am always hiding my true feelings and making people like me. I feel as though I am just there for most people. I feel as though I will be throne out too the trash one day. All alone with no one. I am just me. But no one understands. No one, why? Why am I always misunderstood. Why, is the world I knew just tossed to the side because people didn't like their life. Why did they have too affect mines. WHY, must I have a super ego family who doesn't give two craps about anyone else but themselves. Why do people constantly talk crap behind my back. Why are people fake and liars. Why must people question my beliefs.  I just want too be me. But it has become harder as the days pass by. I hope one day I will be able to smile and mean it. I hope I will be me again. NO better than me. Someone I will be happy someone who isn't afraid anymore. Someone who can stand up too anyone and face anything. I will one day, I just have too push forward and move on and ONE DAY in the future. In the FAR future I will smile and be loved and someone or everyone will understand me. I will, I must be patient and hope for the best future.

                                                                    Kassandra Elizabeth Marinaro

4/21/2012 ; update.

Well , I just finished up this year FCATs, thank you lord. (:  Also on the 18th I was able to meet some family of my grandfather on my mother side which has never really happened. It was so much fun and I had a blast with my family. I have been super bored and want summer too come SOON. School in getting on my last nerve with all the work and all the DRAMA. With it being a small school you would have never have guess it would be filled with that much POINT less drama that everyone gets all worked up about for no reason. But whatever. For the last two summers I have been going to Texas , but I wont this summer. So? I might go to Utah to visit my daddy and Tammy or I might do something else. I don't know, but I do know I do want too leave Florida, this summer. AT LEAST Orlando. There is nothing to do in this wack state. (: I want Ohio . . . That seems fun . lol! Well , I am going to go to sleep cause I am really tired.

Small Update.

 Wow ' It has been forever hasn't? I been busy and lazy. Well not long ago MegaCon was in town and I went. It was fun♥ The inner nerd was set loose. I went with Brandon two of the days, then with Gladys, Lizzy, JoJo and Justin one day. I couldn't have been happier. I got to buy a mask and some other amazing stuff. I couldn't stop smiling the whole weekend.School is going okay? I mean it is school come on now. Passport is okay to a point but then on the other hand it can get annoying but the kids in my class always make it fun. My dad moved not to long ago to, he moved to Utah. . . I am going to miss him.

Top Ten Christmas Gifts(:

So I had some amazing gifts for Christmas ' but here are my favorite!

1. ANIME CONVENTION (from mom)
Even thou this doesn't come till Feb. it is still the best!

2. Art & Crafts (from mommy)
I love painting and creating things ' and even more with my friends!

3. Manga 's (from Aunt Lori and Chris)
Next 4 books in Naruto from Chris and the 1st books of two new series from Aunt Lori! I can't wait to read!

4. MONEY♥ (from Dad and Diane)
Well? What can I say! M O N E Y

5. C A N D Y (From a couple of people)
Guess who is on a sugar high?

6. New shift (from Mamaw)
Best thing to wear well chilling around the house!

7. Twister (From dad)
What? Now I will never be bored with friends over!

8. 20 Q (From dad)
Best when bored or on car trips!

9.Head Phones ( from Mom)
Nice ' kind!

10.Lotion (From the Munoz)
Best smelling things ever!

Things about me(:

Here are some things I think people should know about me ! 

• I am in love with Classic Disney movies.
• I am obsessed with Disney's princesses
• My Favorite Princess is Ariel 
• I hate Twilight with a passion
• I rather wear boots than Jordan's
• I am a country girl 
• I don't believe in god.
• I am scared of the dark. 
• I am addicted to facebook
• I actually LOVE school
• I hate to get bad grades. 
• I am an ANIME freak.
• I love video games
• I am a geek
• I can't stand for my glasses to get dirty
• I can't watch scary movies. 
• I hate how I look
• I live in a closet 
• I love Spanish music thou I don't understand it
• I love Country music
• I love Classical Rock & Rock
• I kinda like Rap , but it depends on the artist. 
• I am picky
• I have to have  ketchup or BBQ sauce  on most of my food.
• I hate fish
• I love kids
• I love to babysit
• I miss cheer-leading 
• My mom is my hero
•  I have 2 Nephews and a niece on the way
• I support our troops not the war.
• I have always wanted to brake an arm 
• I am loud
• I am crazy
• I am annoying 
• I can't stand fakes
• I am strong
• I can't stand crying in front of people
• I limit who I let in
• I smile no matter what
• I actually LOVED being home-schooled
• I have a fear of reptiles
• I love animals 
• I am obsessed with Japan
• I love NCIS , CIS , Law and Order and ECT.
• I hate a lot of people secretly
• I love my little sister

So that is all I can think of (: